My rambling continues ...

An hour to 31st Dec 2004.

In 25 hours time, we will be ushering in Year 2005. There will be a family gathering at my cousin's place for countdown. I doubt I will stay for countdown. Still have to work on New Year day. Sigh. It was supposed to be a Christmas cum New Year Party organised by me and my cousins. We are suppose to get a gift to exchange. I bought a candle stand and I am supposed to hunt a present on one of my cousin's behalf. He was the one whom suggested exchange gift session and he is the one who haven't bought any gift yet. Cool! I am thinking of getting a teddy bear on his behalf. But this is so kiddy! Hrmnn...but I like it though...

I have rented an apartment for a night on Saturday. Reason: have to work till late, so might as well stay near the client's place and be able to wake up late the next day. Yeah, have to work on a Sunday too. My sis then suggested to have a party since my birthdays falls on Sunday. I've invited my Uni gang and some other close friends. The best thing is, the party will start at 9pm only cos I have to work. This is pathetic but my sis seems so excited about it. Moreover, she voluntered to cook.

I've received an Origins bath set, a Cheap 'n Chic perfume, a bracelet, a travel pouch set, a water globe, and a coin bank? for Christmas cum birthday. I love the ginger bath set. It is something I will not buy to pamper myself because it is expensive.

A uni friend asked me today, whether he is good looking. He has been asking me this question a couple of times already. Guys can be vain too! I have not answered him his question. I just do not want him to feel satisfied. But he is quite good looking. Just that he smokes and I used to hate him in Uni. I treated him badly when we were in Uni. It was hate at first sight. Why? ---I used to see him sitting outside the shoplots smoking. He was my senior. I felt so disgusted with the way he smokes. I think he thought he was cool. Then on my flight to UK, I saw him sitting at the seat next to mine. I wanted to cry. He started a conversation with me, trying to be friendly but I ignored him the whole time. I pretended to sleep or concentrated heavily at the tv screen. Yeap, I was that bad. Then class started and I saw him in my class. Great! Me and my friends nickname him 'Chicken' cos he likes to move his mouth one-kind. Ok, the truth is, not only me hate him but most of the girls. Cos he loves to talk dirty. Or maybe it was just the way he talks. I mean, we girls do talk about sex thinggy during our girl chat. But it was just the way he talks and acts that make us run from him. Anyway, above all that ... he treated me well (eventhough I was still ill-treating him). He even got me a souvenir when he went travelling. And I got him 'nothing'. But don't know why, I am now quite close with him. I think he changed quite a lot when he was going out with this girl. He broke up with that girl and is going out with a more 'wild-looking' girl who smokes. He said he don't love her. That's interesting. But what's more interesting is, she don't love him too.

Why do people go steady when they don't love each other? It is for companionship purposes?

Year End Rambling

Never felt any movement on the ground but it was reported that the place that I am staying was included in the tremor. A friend texted me and asked, how am I. As usual, people as blur as me would reply "What do you mean?". I was eating durian, a local fruit with my family and cousins in the house that afternoon. Then, I went to sleep until about 5.30pm. I woke up and wrote a letter. But nothing felt. I guess, the public must have felt the quake during my Zzzzz period.

I've been busy for the past weeks. First I was busy arranging a gathering on Christmas eve and then another one for Jan 1st. Then I was informed, one of our company client would like to upgrade the application server and it must be done on the 1st January 2005. It will involve migrating their database because there's a change in the table structure. Sigh. So, I have to re-arrange my New Year party from 1st to the eve. I find it to be a hassle for making such arrangement. I hate changes. I don't think I am someone who can adapt to changes. I care about what people think of me. Hrmmn....I don't think it is a good sign to think of the negative stuffs during this time of the year.

Oh, I think I like this guy. And I think he doesn't like me. That's great. I gave him a scarf for Christmas. No, he is not going to use in this weather but he will be going overseas for work. I wasn't happy when I heard he will be leaving but if he doesn't go, I don't think he will be happy. Almost everyone in his dept will be going. Hrrmmnn....He likes the scarf.

I made a few bracelets for my friends. They like it. The best thing is, they thought I bought it. It shows the quality & design is as good as what you get outside I suppose. But wait till they look at it thoroughly. ;)

I was so tempted to join Hacken Lee & Alan Tam's countdown concert. Not that I am fan of theirs but heard it was very good. A friend went for the countdown last year. I also found out I actually wrote a post halfway but forgot all about it - that was like way before Christmas. Sigh.

Five rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred
2. Free your mind from worries
3. Live simply
4. Give more
5. Expect less

Dissapointments are like road humps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the humps too long. Move on!

When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking of something better to give you.

When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

God didn't promise days without pain, paughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

You can't make someone love, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

What the heart gives away is never gone ... It is kept in the hearts of others. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risks.

Secure a special place in your heart. A certain place only you can enter. For there will come a time when you need to find yourself and only your heart will show you the way.

The measure of love is when you love without measure. In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it, don't ever let go, the chance might never come your way again.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride.

We spend so much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook excuses.

Never aboandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!